As this year began, Lazaris spoke of seven underlying truths
that were integral to our mastery and to the artistry of 1995.
One phrase jumped out at me. "If you can consciously define
your prison, you can plan and chart your escape." Fear is
one prison that we all have in common; it is a prison we all know
too well.
In my experience, fear is both a feeling and a state of
being. It is a feeling of being separated that often results in
alienation and separation. It is a sense of being alone that
imprisons us in loneliness. The feeling of being alone and lonely
forever fosters helplessness and eventually hopelessness. To me,
fear is anything that initially threatens us physically,
emotionally, mentally, or etherically with separation or with
aloneness and loneliness, and that threatens to leave us
alienated, imprisoned, and helpless. Fear is more than a threat.
Fear also jeopardizes our overall well-being.
Our initial response to fear is somewhat instinctive; it is
somewhat conditioned. Perhaps we try to eliminate fear by denying
or discounting it. Maybe we try to obscure fear by defending
against it or by distracting ourselves from it. There are times
when we tell ourselves that if we are careful and if we plan
well, we can just avoid fear altogether. At times we try to
refuse fear with thick clouds of anxiety or with suffocating
blankets called phobias. From time to time we have each rejected
fear with counterphobic responses that fly in the face of fear
hoping that our conquest will be our liberation.
As we grow and change, we move beyond our initial responses,
no matter how effective or ineffective they have been. We come to
see that as threatening and as jeopardizing -- as frightening --
as fear may be, it can also serve as well. Fear can be a
"good enemy."
Fear is a survival instinct; it is an automatic response.
This instinct is centered in the amygdala gland within the limbic
brain. The limbic brain triggers the classic fight, flight, feed,
and reproduce responses to that which is truly a threat -- to
that which truly does put us in jeopardy. It is electromagnetic.
It is chemical. Fear is biological, and it is natural.
Fear is a great teacher; it is a great motivator. Often the
first teacher we come across in infancy and throughout the
evolving phases of life, fear is also an expedient teacher. There
are some lessons in life best learned as fast as possible. Beyond
teaching, our fears can motivate us to change and to grow.
"If necessity is the mother of invention, then certainly
fear is the father." (Lazaris)
Fear is a constant companion around failure, continuously
threatening and warning. It is also a constant companion of
success looming at the boundaries and periphery, reminding us of
where we have been and to where we are going.
Fear is a universal wake-up call. It serves as messenger of
our negative ego and it can be the messenger of our more real
self. As well as a tool of our dark sides, fear (especially if we
do not provide other tools) can be effectively used by our light
side: By our Higher Self, by our Soul and Spirit, and by any
number of unseen friends. In many ways, it functions like a smoke
alarm. We may not like the sound or the interruption, but we
recognize it is better to hear the smoke alarm than to be trapped
in the fire.
I have come to appreciate my fears. I have learned to see
them and to work with them as "good enemies." Now I
want more. Lazaris points out that "everything is different
now," and I want fear to be and to work differently, too.
We can redefine fear from enemy to good-enemy; we can
transform fear from good-enemy to ally. I think that
transformation begins with discovering our particular and unique
pattern of fear. Regardless of the varied forms our fear takes,
it has a specific pattern or function that is repetitively
present and repeatably our own. Our pattern of fear is like our
signature of fear. If we can discover that pattern, we can
decipher it. Once deciphered, we can release the gifts and
treasures locked inside fear. Liberating those gifts and
treasures, we can set ourselves free. We can escape our current
prison of fear.
What are the patterns? 1. Abandonment and Betrayal. 2.
Martyrdom and Punishment. 3. Perfection and Blame. 4.
Defectiveness and Shame. 5. Entitlement and Suffering. 6.
Dependency and Devastation. 7. Sabotage and Exclusion. Even
though not every fear fits in any one category, most of our fears
will cluster around one major theme.
By listing past and current fears, we can soon discover where
they cluster, and we can then determine our theme or our fear
pattern. Another way to look at it is this: What is the
consistent threat, and what is the repeated jeopardy of our
seemingly random fears?
Do we always come back to the threat and jeopardy of being
abandoned or rejected? Instead are we continually sure we will be
misunderstood, unappreciated (martyrdom), and punished? Are we
convinced that we must be perfect or that others expect us to be
perfect, and that we will end up being blamed for its lack? Do
our fears, no matter their form, threaten to expose our defects
and leave us buried in shame? Do our fears amplify our supposed
entitlements and always add to our suffering? Are we convinced
that fear -- any fear -- will lead to total devastation and
therefore must be avoided at all cost? Have we concluded that our
fears will sabotage us and our reality leaving us excluded from
life, from love, and from those who could give us life and love?
Once we discover our pattern of fear, we can use our
metaphysics and our spirituality with their array of techniques
to dismantle the pattern rather than always having to meet and
face each fear individually. With the pattern of fear clearly
defined, we can focus our attention on resolving the issues of
that pattern. We can recognize and acknowledge that the intention
of our fear is not to attack us, but is to teach us about the
blockages or the encumbrances that are entangling us and standing
in the way of our success.
We can forgive ourselves and change by healing the underlying
pattern of fear. In so doing, we reduce the sheer number of fears
as well as mitigating their potential threat and jeopardy. We can
use our fears not just to demonstrate our prowess of over-coming
fear repeatedly: We can use our fears to direct us to the lessons
we have chosen to learn in this lifetime. As allies, our fears
can show us where we need more loving and more healing around
issues such as abandonment and rejection, martyrdom and
punishment, perfection and blame, etc.
Then we can begin to unfold the gifts otherwise lost in fear:
Living Imagination and Vibrant Visualization; Active Creativity
and Innovative Invention; Trust and Intimacy; Intuition and
Knowing; Will and Self-Determination; Dreaming and Dream Weaving;
and Perseverance and Self-Preservation. We have used each of
these to keep our fears alive and ever-threatening and
ever-jeopardizing. We have used each of these to survive in a
world where there are too many fears.
Beyond the pattern of fear, we can use these traits -- these
energies and forces -- to become the visionaries. We can use
these qualities to heal the pattern and to love ourselves. We can
use these gifts and treasures to free ourselves to create our
reality and to manifest our creations more beautifully than
before.
These are the things I have been thinking about of late.
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