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Hope

Sunday, December 20, 2015
Blog: Hope

By Jach

A Grouping of Questions with Jach's Replies from the Online Conferences

During the Evenings with Jach and the "Twenty Questions" Conferences as well, so many have commented about Jach's wisdom and insight. He connects current events to Lazaris' teachings in a way that helps bring new and refreshing outlooks to so many issues in our world. Because of the overwhelming feedback we have received, we have grouped together some of Jach's answers by topic. Enjoy!

Hope

Q: Can you provide your thoughts on the Tucson event this past weekend? It has multiple meanings and metaphors, but I'd like your reflections.

JACH:

Well, at first I was shocked and appalled, and then I turned to understanding, or to working with understanding, and I have come around to once again being appalled. At first my shock had to do with such an act of violence happening at a shopping center in a place such as Tucson. (I have been there ... once [s].) Then I wondered if this were political. I wondered if this guy, with mental problems and all, had hooked into the segment of the Tea Party that advocates "take them down" or having someone "in our targets." I now am hoping that this guy had no knowledge of that kind of stuff and that he was just part of some obscure lunatic fringe. I am hoping that this was not at all political, not at all. Even so, I am still appalled: This is America. These sorts of things don't happen in America.

The polarization that Lazaris has mentioned stands out here. The lack of imagination and the lack of dreaming leads to instant polarization, Lazaris pointed out in November. We are seeing that now. I do not speak of this with any political bias (and personally, I surely do have a lot of political bias [s]), but I leave that aside now). The issue of an imagination that is lacking and perhaps even dying, and of a lack of dreams, crosses all political terrain. And I think it has a strong connection with a growing sense that can be called a lack of future. I think so many people just do not have a sense that there is a future or the future they see is abysmal. Some tie that to politics: The left says the right is leading us into devastation and the right says the left is leading us off a cliff into oblivion, but such rhetoric is symptomatic of a larger issue, it seems to me. People, left, right, or in any other direction, seem to lack a sense of the future or of a positive future. And I think this is connected to the Tucson shooting. This guy having no sense of the future tried to what? Kill the future of a governmental official? A judge? Innocent people? Why? He had no future. Perhaps he was showing them that they have no future. He created that for 6 people and he significantly altered his future and the future of all who attended (to varying degrees).

We need hope. We need the expectations and anticipations; we need the presence of soul and spirit that are hope. And out of that sense of hope, new dreams can be born. And out of that sense of hope, new futures can form. Initiation is not enough. We need to fuel what we set in motion with hope. I think back to 2000, the Year of Dominion, and to 2001, the Year of Mystery. The terrain of dominion is made fertile by the insemination of mystery. The womb of dominion needs the insemination of mystery to give birth to creation and manifestation. Well, this decade began with 2010: The Year of Initiation. But setting things in motion, causing them to be, is not enough. We need to fuel the initiations with hope so that which is set in motion, rich with hope, can emerge as enchantment. I see a pattern here. And I see Tucson calling us to that pattern. Yesterday Gabby (I think it's beautiful that people are calling her Gabby) opened her eyes. In the midst of this horror: hope. What a gift she gives us all.

Then there are President Obama's comments. Oh man, can we come together? Perhaps we magicians can. He spoke of the tendency to blame and point fingers. He spoke of how we want to know why. We want reasons for the unreasonable. He spoke of how we have choice in how we react and how we respond. I doubt that some such as Rush Limbaugh and Glenn Beck will quiet their rhetoric, but they are entertainers: They have an audience to please and they are putting on a show. But for us who are magicians, for us who are mapmakers, I think we can come together. Not in form -- I am not talking about coming together in form. But we can come together in function. I am appalled that it happened, and I am determined to find the hope and to augment and embellish the hope in this tragedy.

Q: When Lazaris talks to us about emptying ourselves of all Hope that has been, he also says "not hopeless, but devoid of Hope. I get it when I am in meditation and can do it, but wonder how you would cognitively describe it?

JACH:

Lazaris talks of the Paradox of Hope. Actually, he talked of it years and years ago in the 1990s, I believe, when he first talked of hope. [s] The paradox, as you point out is that you need to let go of all hope, all of it, in order to receive hope. That is, you need to release it all in order to receive its bounty ... Ah, the bounty of hope and then the magic of hope. In a sense, we have to make room for it by discarding all the hope we have. Lazaris also points out: Not hopeless, but devoid of hope. I love the next part.

You say you get it in meditation, but outside of meditation, how do you describe it? I am not sure you can cognitively describe it in the conscious state. It is a paradox: to have it you have to discard it. You have to be willing to be without hope, not hopeless but without hope. And hope is a transcendent energy. We cannot fully describe or fully comprehend hope, and I suspect we cannot cognitively describe it, either.

So with that as a backdrop, an analogy: I can take off my shoes and be shoeless. But there are those who have lost their shoes or who never had them. So maybe when I discard my shoes, I am devoid of shoes, but not shoeless. I will get my shoes back shortly, but for those who truly lost their shoes? Okay, okay, it's not a perfect analogy. Not perfect? Hey, it's not even a good analogy, but maybe it works.

A hopeless person has no hope, but they do not or cannot take responsibility for its absence. To relinquish hope, to be without hope but not hopeless, means that I can hope, and I can have it again. I am responsible for relinquishing it.

One step more: To be without hope, but not hopeless, is possible because "hopeless" is not a quantity, it is a state of mind and a state of being. It is a quality. When I relinquish my hope, I still maintain a hopeful state of mind and state of being. I just don't hold on to any hope at the moment.
I hope [s] that answers your question in some way.

Q: It is interesting to me that Hope and Trust are linked at that 4th position of the upper Tier of Emotions. Can you please speak to how you see those two energies working together.

JACH:

I think trust is an anchor for hope. Lazaris points out that hope can be a miraculous gift, and hope can also be cruel. I was surprised by that comment, so I thought about it more. Yes. Hope can be false hope. It can be a delusion. It can be clinging to something that isn't or that will never be. We can hope and hope and hope and do nothing or little else, and our reality and our world can be devastated and devastating, but we just sit there hoping and hoping and hoping. ...
Hope can be bitterly cruel and ugly. The abused wife or husband comes back one more time hoping things will be different this time. The broken-hearted who clings to the hope that he or she will come back ... waiting for the ghostly lover, hoping. I hadn't put that together. I had only thought of hope as this wondrous, magical thing -- which it can be.

So what makes a true hope, a luminous hope, where otherwise a false or cruel hope might be? I think trust is a key. It is not the only key, I think, but I think it is an important one. And when I say that, I don't mean that we need to trust what we are hoping for. (Maybe that's true, too, but that's not what I am thinking about now.) I think we need to be trustworthy. I think we need to be someone that others can trust -- worthy of another's trust. And I think we have to be one who is willing to trust others, others who have demonstrated that they are worth trusting. So I think we need to be conscious of our rapport with trust, and that we need a working relationship (a relationship that works) with trust. When we are trustworthy and we trust, I think we can release our hold on hopes that could be cruel. I think we can release false hope, delusionary hopes, and hopes that are excuses to hold on to stuff we need to let go of. So such hopes are going to be there. Our negative ego can present them. Others can encourage them. But if we are trustworthy and if we trust, I think we can sort and sift through those potentially cruel hopes.

That's one aspect. Another aspect is that it takes strength to hope, to genuinely hope. Lazaris has pointed out that the consensus reality is distrustful of hope. Hope is seen as an emotion of last resort. When all else has failed, the only thing left is hope. That's what's sadly true for many people in the world. When someone says, "Well, we are hopeful. All we can do is hope," they are describing a really bad situation. To overcome the resonance of the consensus reality and to truly lean upon and rest upon hope ... that takes strength, a trusting and enduring strength, it seems to me.

The word, hope, is an easy one to say. We hope a lot ... We hope people are happy, we hope they are satisfied, we hope they drop dead [s], we hope for positive things and we hope for negative things for almost everyone. The word slips out of our mouths easily. But can we truly hope? Do we work with hope, really? I know I have a great deal to learn about working with hope. I say it a lot. I value hope. I appreciate it. I get inspired by it. I get goose bumps, and I get all teary-eyed when I think of its beauty and its wonder (and its power and potency). But I know very little of hope, of the real deal of the genuinely powerful, magical thing that is hope. ... Primordial Hope, Luminous Hope, Human Hope ... the Glamoury and the Majesty of Hope. I think trust is a part of it. AND I think that the two (trust and hope) may be two very different things, but that they share the same resonance. They function at the same frequency there in the middle or the 4th position -- in that upper tier. They are the most determined, and they are essential for happiness. As alike or as different as they may be, they are key and essential for love.

Q: I am wondering, with all the energies of hope, if there is anything we can do on a daily basis to boost hope in ourselves and keep our resonance high and clear.

JACH:

Oh, there are so many things we can do. [s] I cannot remember the title of the recording, but it's on Hope and Joy, and it was an Evening recording from a few years back. If you go to the shopping cart and do a search, the exact title will come up. [Editor's Note: The recording is "The Incredible Magic of Hope and Joy."] On that recording Lazaris suggests several techniques. One is an Elixir of Hope. It's very nice. Another is a technique to work with Seven Days of Hope. It is stunningly amazing. For seven days, you focus on hope. You focus on listening to your Soul and Spirit. You focus on expressing your expectations and observing your anticipations. Lazaris points out that we use the words "expectation" and "anticipation" interchangeably, and that's okay. But they are different. Anticipation is our actions or behaviors in advance of an event. Our expectations are our feelings and images after an event. Anticipation is masculine energy, and expectation is feminine energy.

Even though we use the words interchangeably, it is helpful to track our anticipations. What do we do and how do we behave in advance of an expected event? And it is valuable to track our expectations, the feelings and images we hold after the event. We can work to lift each. We can work to allow each to be alive with light. They can be luminous. When our anticipations and our expectations are luminous, we are alive with hope. Our hope is luminous. We can flow that light -- that luminous hope -- into our reality and into the world.

During one of the recent two One-Day events, we worked with Igniting the Embers of Hope. It is beautiful. It is powerful. In the other, we take those embers of hope to the Weaver Woman and together weave a Tapestry of Hope. Those two meditations are luminous. And I truly know the world is and that it can be different because of the work that we can do with luminous hope. We can also work with a Journal of Hope. Write down your hopes: desires, dreams, visions (passive hope) and your ideas, plans, and projects (active hope). Put them together as magic papers ... a 3" square, one for each hope. Fold those papers with intention and attention. Focus. [s] Then put them in a "Hope Chest," a box or a bowl, and let them incubate. You can also work with a crystal that is a Purveyor of Hope or one that has an Incubation Chamber. Or, you can work with a crystal that you choose and from which you get permission, and that crystal can be your Hope Amplifier. Work with the Hope Chest or Hope Amplifier, a box (or bowl), or a crystal. Place the slips of paper under or around the crystal. You can infuse your day with hope. And, perhaps, what is even more exciting and rewarding, you can infuse the world with hope.

But watch out! [s] Hope is the initiator. It will set things in motion and cause things to be. It is immensely powerful. Immensely. And it is beautiful in the hands of a magician. So have fun with hope. Okay? Thanks for asking. [s] You have sparked some ideas in me. I hope I have sparked some in you.

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Fear of Success

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Fear of Success

By Lazaris

One has heard so often in the world out there about fears of failure. It was presented perhaps a decade ago as this revelatory understanding that there is fear of success.

And it became something of a catch phrase, something of a buzzword. "Your problem is you have fear of success." And it's true for many people. Ironically, for many people the fear of success is much bigger than the fear of failure. You have learned through conditioning, from the time you were a very small infant, to cope with and deal with failure. Everyone has faced failure many times. You can and do cope with failure. Likewise, you have come to face success as well. However, the "conditioning" to deal with and cope with success is never as thorough or as frequent. Therefore, truly so, success is more frightening than failure is.

However, the FEAR OF SUCCESS became such a catch phrase, such a witty, wise thing to say, that no one stopped to look at ... "Well, what does that really mean?"

The psychological concepts come forth in terms of contractual arrangements with parents. They are contracts like: "I will follow your footsteps, and I will never be better than my dad." Or they come in living up to the parental expectations, the slot that you were put in, your place in the family constellation. Lots of psychological concepts were presented, and again, they were very correct.

But here is what to look at now in this monumental decade, the 1990s. One could elaborate for hours on each of these dynamics, but briefly the mechanisms are as follows:

ONE First of all, success is scary because of the weight one gives it, the weight one places on what it means.

If you hold it inside that success means you're smarter, craftier, wiser or "slicker" (in the negative meaning of the word) than others, then success is very frightening.

If you hold that because you're successful you are therefore superior to or "better-than" other people -- that you are "entitled," that you are "endowed," that you have a right to be arrogant -- then success is scary.

When you hold that success validates you as being good and whole and right and true -- or when you hold that success exonerates you from things that would make a less successful person have to work with forgiveness (which truly does relieve the past) -- then success is scary.

If you attach these kinds of meanings, you weigh down success. Here's success, this thing, this essence. If you hang onto it all these weights of better-than, smarter, craftier, you make it far too heavy. And if you make it so very heavy, it begins to wobble, and indeed it can collapse. Therefore, success is scary because of the weight one gives it.

Further, it's scary because it never does any of those things. It never does make you smarter. It never does vindicate or validate you. It never does exonerate you or make you a perfect person. And if you hold that it will, success becomes very frightening.

So the first thing that makes success really scary is the weight that is attached to it.

TWO What's also frightening about it is that success is part of a creative dynamic. Whenever something is created, there's always something else that is destroyed. This is why Rollo May referred to the courage to create -- because there is always that conflict. As you create something, something else is destroyed. If nothing else, ignorance is destroyed. And this very dynamic of creativity also applies to success. It'll often be followed with guilt -- feeling guilty that you've done something, that you've changed the order of things, that you've stepped outside the normal range.

There may even be a feeling of doubt: "Have I done the right thing? What if I'm not heading in the right direction?" It's so very strange. We hear so many people who are succeeding wonderfully well, but their fear is: "Yes, but what if this wasn't what I was meant to do? What if I was supposed to become something else? Suppose my destiny was something else? What if I've somehow managed to land in this arena of success, and I'm flying along like crazy, and one day will wake up and realize I've missed the boat?" Doubt and the concern around that -- that's part of the creative function. Therefore, we would suggest here it's frightening.

THREE Success is also frightening because success carries chaos with it. We call success Light Chaos. But in your world, you're geared and conditioned to have no chaos at all. It's an outgrowth of adolescence where life is so absolutely, unbelievably chaotic that you try to stabilize it with the absolutes -- the always's and never's, the black's and white's -- of adolescence.

And you have come out of that period with the belief that, above all, you should not have chaos. Above all, have things orderly and smooth. And success has chaos. It brings chaos.

Success therefore erupts and brings forth what we call the "root emotion." Whenever success occurs, it brings out the dark side of self, turmoil and trouble. Therefore, of course, whenever chaos exists, chaos brings the eruption, or at least the disturbance, of the dark side. It brings out the Dark Law -- that basic, unbelievable truth that you hold onto. "I can never be happy," or "I will never be successful," or the various negative beliefs that you've now made into a Law.

Chaos brings questioning and the issue of reviewing self. All chaos does, whatever kind, be it physical or emotional, mental or spiritual. It also brings up issues from the past, issues from childhood.

So there are a number of reasons success is scary, in and of itself. And if you can understand that it is scary, and you can anticipate certain of these fears, then we would suggest you can resolve them.

FOUR One of the biggest reasons success is scary is because of what we call a faulty foundation. When you build a house, you lay a foundation and do all the things that are proper according to code. Then upon it you plan to erect a two-story residence.

Well, if in the midst of waiting for that foundation to dry, you decide, "I think I'll make better use of the space and build a ten-story skyscraper on top," the foundation won't hold.

What we mean by the foundation is the motivation. Why do I want to be successful in the first place? If the reason is not solid, if that's not the proper foundation -- solid or not -- then it's going to lean, to tip, to crack and crumble. And success, like a house of cards, will come down.

And what we mean by faulty foundation is: If you're trying to be successful in order to punish someone, that's a faulty foundation.

"I'll show them. All those kids in school who said I'd never amount to anything -- I'll show them, and I'll go back and rub their noses in it." Or, "I'll show my father," or "I'll show my mother." Or, "I'll get 'em and make them suffer. I'm going to be successful and then walk all over them."

Those are faulty motivations. We didn't say they're wrong or bad. We're not judging them. We're simply saying that they can't weather the weight of success.

If you're doing it to vindicate yourself, it's a faulty foundation. Vindication is a fascinating thing, because your consensus reality tells you to do things to vindicate yourself. It never works. Vindication has never worked. "I made a mistake, so now I'm going to do it right, and that will somehow expunge the record." No, forgiveness works, vindication doesn't.

Therefore, if you're trying to succeed to vindicate yourself -- "I really screwed up in my 20s and now in my 40s I'm going to be a triumphant success and that will expunge the record" -- it won't work. It never does. Even if you have a magnificent success, it never erases anything. Forgiveness can, but not vindication.

If you're doing something as a way to win approval, to win praise, to win the acceptance of another, it's a faulty motivation. Again, we're not saying it's a bad motivation. We're saying that it's too weak. It can support "this much" success for approval, for praise, but it can't support "this much more". When you pile this much on, OK. But more than that, and it starts to wobble and crumble. Indeed you can sabotage yourself and end up punishing yourself simply because the foundation, the motivation, the reason you want to be successful is faulty.

So from the weight of what you attach to the success, to the very foundation underneath it -- from the creative process to the chaotic process in between -- those are four very specific reasons (and there are others) why it's scary.

Now, if you can understand that for yourself, then you can change your motivations. You can rebuild and restructure a whole different foundation for being successful. You can take the weight off and realize that it's not going to make you smarter or better-than or give you license. You can be prepared for the chaos, and when it comes, you can work with it. You can handle it. You don't have to freak out and run away. You can be prepared for the guilt and doubt that's going to arise in the very dynamic of creativity.

So now when success comes, it doesn't have to be scary. And what fear is remaining, you can right. You can have the confidence to know that you can overcome it.

Now, certainly, there are a certain number of approaches and techniques one works with, but that, in a nutshell is what we're talking about when one looks at the fear of success.

Similarly, we have talked about fear itself. Fear is scary, yes? Everyone knows that, but no one really stops to look at why.

Certainly indeed fear is scary because it threatens not so much death, although the threat of destruction is a part of it. Mainly it's scary because it threatens impotence. An example: Perhaps you're not so much afraid of dying as you are afraid of pain in the process of dying. And even scarier is feeling that pain and not dying, and therefore having to live the rest of your life with that. That impotence -- that's the threat that fear offers.

But more than that, fear threatens the withdrawal of affection. Fear threatens the exposure of the Dark side of self. Fear also threatens the exposure of the Light Side of self, the positive qualities that people have that they've similarly learned to tuck away. It's what psychologists call the Shadow, the Dark Shadow and the Light Shadow. Fear threatens to expose them both.

Fear threatens also to produce or generate destruction. It threatens that you'll be totally obliterated, totally demolished - and short of it that, you won't have the gift of death, but that you'll have to survive.

And fear blackmails. Fear says, "If you don't watch out, we're going to cause you to have love withdrawn, and you're going to end up all alone and lonely." Or, "We're going to expose you, and everyone will see your ambition, and your aggressiveness, and the pride and hostility, and all those ugly things you thought you had hidden so well." Or, worse yet, "We're going to expose you, and they're going to see your power and strength and talent and all the beautiful parts that you've hidden away."

It's blackmail, just as if someone said, "We're going to expose something, so pay up." Well, that's what fear does. It says, "If you don't cooperate with us, if you don't be afraid of us, then we're going to do something, and you'd better pay up."

And as with any blackmail, if you expose it, you're safe. Why would love be withdrawn? What would happen to intimacy, the caring? What is that Dark Side that you're so afraid of, or the Light Side that you're even more afraid of? What could be the potential physical damage or maiming or impotence that would be there? What is the loneliness that would be there? What is the loneliness that it really threatens?

And as you can expose that to yourself, then you reduce -not eliminate, but reduce -- why fear is so scary. Once you reduce it, then fear can once again become that instinct that is a natural part of you -- the survival instinct of fight, flight, reproduce and feed yourself. It can become the teacher.

Fear was your first teacher, the very first one you ever had. The fear of mother withdrawing the nursing, the love, the nurturing. It is a great teacher. It is a motivator, certainly so. If necessity is the mother of invention, then too often the father of invention is fear. It can be a great motivator, and we would suggest it also haunts and looms. But it can also warn you, cause you to remind yourself and to keep within the boundaries of your own self and your own direction. Fear can be the boundary to let you know when you're getting off course.

So it can be very positive if you can take away the blackmail. And in that scope, once you remove the blackmail then you can learn to work with fear, and it doesn't have to be so frightening. It doesn't have to be the enemy. In fact, it can become a strange, but nonetheless very valuable, ally. And in this time, it is so important that people really not just say the words and let them pass on by, not just pay lip service to "fear of success," but that they also dig into it and really resolve these issues.

In this decade the greatest of fears and the greatest of joys will be there for humanity -- in an individual and a collective way -- to embrace. As you learn to handle both your right of success and the mask or the shadows of fear, then you can more readily choose the greatest joys and greatest of dreams, and work with and use those fears to implement them.

With love and peace ...

Lazaris

 



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How To Be Understanding

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: How To Be Understanding

By Jach

A Question with Jach's Reply from an Online Conference

During the Online Conference (March 21, 2012) the following question was asked:

"With the ongoing political threats to women's autonomy from the right, and the death of the young black boy in Florida, Trayvon Martin, it seems like we are revisiting issues we thought/hoped were more resolved. Any ideas on how to be an understanding person with these painful, angering issues?"

Several people requested that this question and my reply be made available. There will be a transcript of the entire Online Conference in the Forum Library, but I decided to also post this reply in the Forum and on the Lazaris ~ Concept: Synergy page of Facebook.

It's an amazing time, isn't it? Shocking, in many ways. I cannot remember when, but many months ago Lazaris said that the male chauvinism of the past, which seemed to be on the decline and that seemed to many to be a non-issue, was returning with "a vengeance." He spoke of the radical extremists in the Muslim world. He spoke of the castration and mutilation of women in Africa. He spoke of the Taliban and their impact in Pakistan and Afghanistan. He didn't speak of the rise of chauvinism in the West, but it seems to be here. Racism and bigotry that were "supposed to be resolved" with the Civil Rights Movement of the 1960s, also seem to be increasing. The shooting death of Trayvon Martin speaks to that in a visible way.

How to understand it: What occurs to me is that people, so many people, are dealing with the lower rung of the Tiers of Emotion. So many people are caught up and lost in fear and in hurt. Jealousy seems rampant, as does blame. Unresolved, these constricting emotions, these denied emotions, deteriorate and rot, becoming rage. Rage dips into loneliness and despair. The result: people feel a growing and terrifying sense of alienation. People feel they just don't belong. They don't belong in a world that is "moving too fast."

Alienation, lack of belonging, rage, loneliness, and despair cause people to act out. Some act out with anger. Their anger covers the fear and hurt. Blame covers rage and despair. With alienation, a sense of not belonging, and a world that seems foreign, violence unfolds. Racism, bigotry, and discrimination seem to be a part of that. I think the rise of violent chauvinism is also a major part of that. The term, War on Women, is a political term, a catch phrase. But beyond the rhetoric, there are increased attempts to control women with all the legislation about abortion, contraception, and women's rights, I think it is a function of that alienation and lack of belonging. It leads to a sense of powerlessness. The chauvinism, acting out against women, seems to be a response: an attempt to feel powerful, to be in control, to have impact, to be a part and in a way to "belong." It seems an attempt through control to feel "in control" of a world that has gotten "out of control."

So to understand: It's about comprehending and interpreting along with discerning and assessing. Beyond that, understanding looks to inference -- the emotions that are unspoken and that are "between" the events themselves. Understanding also is about appreciating. That's the hard part here, I think. But I think we can appreciate the pain that the Republican legislators in various states are feeling, and the pain that those who support such oppressive legislation are feeling. I think we can appreciate the sense of alienation and the lack of belonging that I think is behind this new level of chauvinism.

The last step of understanding is valuation. Not to value the violence toward women or the violence to minorities, but to value the desire to belong, the desire to be a part of the world, to be connected, to be included. Under all that, is there a desire, a longing, to be loved? I suspect there is. I can appreciate and value that. I can work my magic to flow love and healing to the perpetrators. I can work my magic to awaken a sense of belonging in those who feel so foreign, so alien, so alienated in this rapidly changing world.

I also think there is shame involved here. I am not sure how it plays exactly. But I think the attempts to corral women (once again) and the acts of violence, are attempts to dump the "sub-human" feelings of powerlessness on to others. Shame: "I feel powerless. If I can make women feel powerless, perhaps I can alleviate my feeling of powerlessness. If I can make others afraid, perhaps my fears will be lessened." Again, I am not clear on this, but as I have been responding to your question, the idea of shame keeps coming up. It's a puzzle piece here, I think, and I don't know where it fits. Anyway, these are my thoughts to your question about how to understand.

 

I hadn't thought about understanding these situations until this question came up.

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Coming Home: The First Step

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Coming Home: The First Step

By Lazaris

An excerpt from the Personal Growth Recording Coming Home by Lazaris.

All right. All right. Once again it is a pleasure and a joy to have this chance to work with you. The words … pleasure, joy … seem too small to hold and too short to reach the fullness of the pleasure and joy it always is to explore and to work with you.

This day we talk of Coming Home, two words that also seem too small and too short. The very words bring tingles and goose bumps to some and bring tears to the eyes of others. They stir the hearts and minds of all of you. These words, at first blush seeming so simple and so mundane, stir the mysterious and the mystical; they stir the beautiful and the wondrous. These words touch something so deep in you that you cannot seem to touch back – not yet. Coming Home.

Coming Home catches your breath and creates a poignant pause that suspends the moment, making it eternal – making it enchanted, treasured, precious, and special. In that suspended and eternal moment, your spiritual yearning can be made new; your spiritual quest can be made more whole. Both yearning and quest can become rich, vibrant, and vital. Coming Home … in that moment, you can become transcendent. You can transcend.

Somewhere amid the journey, somewhere within the dance, you can discover and unfold what Coming Home is for you. Perhaps you will begin finding what it means in a symbolic way. These two words can be as a hieroglyph or icon. Meditatively, pondering the words themselves, you can "double-click" to open a window of awareness and understanding of you and your spirituality.

Maybe what you seek can be found in the metaphoric meaning and significance found embedded in the words and within the idea. You can find the meaning and significance held in the lifetimes – past, parallel, and future – that make up your fabric of being. Against the backdrop of such lifetimes, you may well find an already-existing realness.

Beyond the embedded meaning in metaphor, some will find the reverie of Coming Home in the metaphorical meaning and significance you give – that you consciously create and manifest by choice in the words and in the idea of Coming Home. Beyond the existing realness, you can consciously give realness.

The richer value of Coming Home lies beyond awareness and understanding; it lies beyond meaning and significance. Please do not misunderstand us: There is value in awareness and understanding, obviously so. Likewise, there is value in meaning and significance.

And then there is a different kind of value. Whereas most value is found in the thing, there is also value that isbeyond the thing. There is also value – a unique and phenomenally powerful value – that lies beyond. It is a value beyond content and context – beyond form. It is a value that can be found in the function – in the engagement, in the embrace, and in the activity of Coming Home.

Somewhere amid the journey and within the magical dance, you can awaken:

Powers, strengths, and talents both old and new with a raw and sheer force that you can harness with design and direction to more fully achieve and fulfill your destiny.

Mystical choice that can be a keystone to all creation and manifestation, a cornerstone to all success, happiness, and joy, and that is seminal to all change. Mystical choice that surpasses and supersedes itself to engage the Truer Self and to re-direct the entropy of the evolution of chance and necessity to the spirituality of the evolution of choice and reflection.

Within the liminal, naked without the encumbrance and entanglements of the Ego-I, you can expose yourself to your vulnerability. You can expose yourself to your weaknesses so that you can change and heal them and so that you can become strong. You can also expose yourself to your strengths, powers, and talents so that you can grow and evolve, becoming freer and more loving. You can become wise.

Miracles that allow you to reach beyond fixing it and curing it to changing and healing it with love.

Motivation: A reason to begin again. A reason to cast off your masks and disguises, to set down your shields and weaponry; a reason to take a stand and to stand tall upon your commitment with visions and dreams. A reason to become the giant that you truly are.

The journey that ended was a journey of Going Home. It was a journey of separation and of forgetting. In your forgetting, it became a journey of fear and of pain: It became a journey of violence, pain, crises, and loneliness. It became a journey of fear and sorrow. As you woke up, that journey of Going Home became a journey of struggle and suffering – "no pain, no gain."

Then it became a journey beyond struggle; it became a journey of love, light, laughter, and celebration. Many called you a fool; some still do. Your journey sought beauty, love, enchantment, and solitude. Yet the journey was still one of Going Home.

Now everything is different, and you have come to the end of that long journey. You are no longer Going Home. You are now Coming Home.

Coming Home. It is like a grand attractor that compels more than it propels, that draws more than it drives. It calls you, and you can respond. It changes every part of you, and you change if you will respond.

In the depth of Coming Home you can discover so many wonders. You can discover the luminous, the numinous, the liminal, and the responsible.

The luminous is that "something more" that defies description. It is the Light within you. You have felt it; you have been astounded and amazed by it. It is the illumination that is the endless mystery of you. In the depth of Coming Home, you can be filled and overflowing with light and love. You can be filled and overflowing with the light and love of God/Goddess/All That Is and of the Goddess, and you can be changed by that very light and love. You can be changed forever.

The numinous … another word for the divinity in you. Though it is premature to say that you are God or Goddess, it is also eternally true that within you there is a "piece of God and of Goddess." Within you lies a divinity. We would suggest that it seems solidly sleeping, stirring and rustling, or waking up more and more, but within you there is a divinity. Deep within the dance called Coming Home, you can be filled and outpouring with the ineffable and the divine beauty and wonder of God/Goddess/All That Is and of the Goddess. You can be radiant with beauty and wonder that can instantly and spontaneously engage and embrace you and as instantly and spontaneously change and grow you.

The liminal is the threshold; it is the gateway to the energy of "between". It is that mysterious between space-time; it is that mystical pause. The liminal is a state between transmutation, transformation, and transcendence. Additionally, the liminal is a state of unity between duality and oneness. We suggest that it is a state of unity and equity without hierarchy and a state of sacred vulnerability. It is holy.

The liminal is also a state of being where you, separate from the Ego-I, can discover the Self-I. There in that mysterious between and in that mystical pause, you can encounter the Self-I who is a blending of the masculine and feminine in you, who is the blended woman and man that you are, regardless of your gender. You can engage the Self-I who knows the equity of the "Faces of Self" with integrity and character and who is the mature self with an elegant rapport with the more real you.

Within the liminal, naked without the encumbrance and entanglements of the Ego-I, you can expose yourself to your vulnerability. You can expose yourself to your weaknesses so that you can change and heal them and so that you can become strong. You can also expose yourself to your strengths, powers, and talents so that you can grow and evolve, becoming freer and more loving. You can become wise.

The responsible means more than the obvious ability to respond. It means "to return to your promise." Within the dance of Coming Home … within its depths … you can find the courage and the confidence to return to the promise you made to God and to the Goddess. So long ago when, by your free will, you separated from God/Goddess/All That Is in pursuit of who you were, you promised that you would return. You promised that you would return to God and that you would return to Goddess.

You separated, we would suggest, and began your journey Going Home. Now you have rounded the bend, and you are upon the journey Coming Home. It is time to return to that promise made "so long ago." It is time to return to your promise of Coming Home.

The beauty: You are waking up now. However conscious or yet to become conscious you are, you are on your way Home. Seek the luminous, numinous, liminal, and the responsible in you, and you will find your way. We love you.

With love and peace,

Lazaris


 

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Creating Futures

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Creating Futures

By Jach

A Question with Jach's Reply from an Online Conference

Q: Jach, how do you best vision what you want in an unknown future? I found it becomes increasingly harder to imagine what I/the world would want in 5/15/25 years. I need that juice to want, but if I don't know what, it is weak.

JACH: Is it weak? No. I don't think so. [s] Now to the question. I think the best way to work with visioning the future is to be aware that there are several different kinds of futures, just as there is an entire array of potential futures already out there:

There are pipeline futures, futures that are already in alignment and in the process of coming into manifestation. Some of these are beautiful, and some are ugly, and there are a bunch between beautiful and ugly. They might be futures that have been seeded with pieces of our past.

For example, if I hold a belief that I was never loved as a child, and I will never really be loved by anyone -- if I hold it that nothing has come easily, that it's always been a struggle and I don't expect it to be any different in the future -- if I think that so many people in my family have been sickly and have had major health concerns - then Pipeline Futures of being rejected or abandoned in love, more struggle, or illness could be coming my way.

Seeds of the past become the fodder of the futures that will be possible. There are fantasy futures that are simply there to hold a resonance. There are Beacon or Radiant Futures that are drawing us toward them, but are never going to manifest. They aren't supposed to manifest. They are only there to inspire us to become more.

So I think visioning begins with working with Pipeline Futures and Beacon Futures.

Oh, there are also Optimal and Optimum Futures. [s]

Anyway, this is what I do:

1. I begin with Pipeline Futures. I take inventory of what clinkers from my past are still making noise in my present. What beliefs are outmoded or inconsistent with who I am? What attitudes, thoughts, feelings -- you get the picture -- are still lingering in my reality? I think, meditate and follow the thread of the clinker into the future. I find it in the pipeline knowing it's on the way to my world. Yikes. I then disarm that future. I take my energy back and disconnect it. I use my imagination. I ask for help. I ask for healing.

2. I continue working with the Pipeline Futures by looking for the "beautiful noise" that comes from my past. I look for the beliefs, thoughts, feelings, realizations, and even the successes, and I listen for the function and for the beauty of those things. Those are also seeds in the pipeline. I go there and give the energy that I have taken from the "bad seeds" to the good ones. I augment and embellish the positive Pipeline Futures. Those two steps I find important for clearing away what can obscure and for embellishing and honing what can illuminate. Then ...

3. I turn to my Beacon Futures. What are those? I don't know. So I "make them up." [s] That is, I imagine them. I dream. I daydream. For example, I have a Beacon Future where I am nicely very old and sitting in a wonderfully comfortable chair reading, reading novels of my favorite authors like Virginia Wolfe or Hemingway. I see the room filled with books on shelves and piled on tables. The light is diffuse. I'm not sure what "diffuse" even means. [s] I see my desk where I will sit down to write after I am done reading for the morning. See, I just imagine these sorts of things because these are the sorts of things that speak to me from my Soul. What they do is create a resonance.

4. Then I sit in the resonance and absorb it. I breathe in that resonance. I don't question it. I don't evaluate it. I just accept it, and then I surrender to it. I surrender my sense of separateness, and I become the resonance.

5. Now, through the eyes of resonance, I open to what's there. Is it an entire future laid out before me? No. It's a glimpse and then perhaps nothing more. It's a fleeting thought or feeling or an idea that pops up, and, admittedly, sometimes it's nothing at all. But then in the days or weeks that follow, I dream it. I think it. I feel it. Or someone says something, and I catch it.

6. I embrace whatever comes, vivid or vague. This step is important to me. I need to just hold it without judging it and without deciding what to do with it. I just hold it.

7. I do another meditation: I call it my "This or Better" Meditation. See, I think back to what my life was like 15 years ago ... when I was 50. I look back to 11 years ago when I was 54. What future did I vision then? The form of it isn't anything I would have or could have imagined. But the current reality is so much more than I could have imagined. I couldn't have visioned this as a future. I couldn't have seen what I have now. But as I live my current life, the function that I visioned 15 years ago, the function behind the images I imagined, the function behind the futures I pretended or made up -- that function is here. The service, the inspiring, the loving, the being loved, the laughter, the exploration, the adventure, the functions were hidden in the "made it up, pretended" and imagined. And those functions have taken form here. I continue to make it up and pretend, and deeper more meaningful functions will be there, even if the wonderfully comfortable chair and all those books and my writing desk are not.

That's what I think is the best way to vision the future. I would suspect if the images weren't too clear ... [s] Weak? No, I think it's mightily strong to know without certainty. [s]

Well, that was longer than I expected. [s] Thanks for asking. It gave me an opportunity to organize my thoughts around this.

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Message from Lazaris on the Events of September 11, 2001

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Message from Lazaris on the Events of September 11, 2001

By Lazaris

This message was originally sent to everyone in the Forum and who is on the mailing list that has an email address. We have received many requests to post this message on the Website as well, so we are posting it now.

Dear Ones,

We invite you to join us in a journey of healing; we invite you to join us at this time of immeasurable tragedy and pain. There are those who will rush to make sense of this insanity. In time you will search to find the meaning and then craft the significance for yourself of what happened today.

But now it is a time to act. It is a time to heal. There are thousands of people – unnamed people who will most likely remain anonymous to you – who need your love, your compassion, and your magic. There is a nation that needs your strength and resolve – that needs your substance and light – to bolster and restore its soul and spirit. There is a world that waits for those such as you to stand up, step forth, and lift your voices of love and healing. It is a time to act. It is a time to lead.

Terrorism threatens various forms of insanity as it attempts to shake and shatter the very foundations of growth. It tries to steal and crush your dreams and hopes just for the sake of destruction. Its goal is to shackle your truer self: to rob all humans of their gracious and tenacious capacity to love and to care.

Terrorists play upon the fears of the possible, the future, and the unknown as they lurk in their own brand of mystery and cower in the “between energies” of the dark and the light. They emerge and then retreat into their own prisons and poisons and into their own manipulations and addictions as they conjure a field of terror trying to force you and others back into similar constricting harbors from fear and pain.

Terrorists, with their war of terrorism, came today. Their ultimate success or failure is not in their hands; it is in your hands now. Many innocent people are dead. More are in shock, riddled with the pain and horror of this day. A nation and a world are in shock. The grief and grieving has just begun. Do the terrorists with their terror win?

With your love, compassion, and magic, with your strength and resolve, and with your substance and light, you can choose: No, the terrorists do not win.

With your healing, you can restore the sanity and stabilize the foundation of growth. You can restore the dreams and hopes in you and in all whom you touch. You can participate in renewing the soul and spirit of a nation and its people. You can stand up and step forth. This is the dawning of your day: You can lift your one voice – a heroic and magical voice – and be heard.

Yes, you can. Oh, dear one, you are part of the equation. You matter. And those such as the terrorists in your world did not count on those such as you, the mapmaking magicians and dreamer/dream weavers of a new world.

We invite you to come with us upon a journey of healing. Come with your Higher Self and those of your Unseen Friends.

1. The journey begins with feeling the full range of your emotions. Feel your fear and pain; feel your anger and hate; feel the tears of your weeping. Feel them fully and intensely. Then release that energy to your Higher Self. Release that energy to your Soul. Release the fullness and intensity to God/Goddess/All That Is.

2. Allow these mystical alchemists to transmute and transform your emotions from their current formation into the formation of greater love. Allow God/Goddess/All That Is to lift you, transcendent, into the embrace of Their Love and into the heart of your partnership together.

3. Then step forth and stand tall: as a beacon and lantern of that Divine Love and Light. Step forth with your individual images of people, of a nation, and then of the world mending and healing. Step forth with your collective images of a world becoming one – becoming One.

4. Now let us all gather in the solitude of the night. We will build a bonfire – a good fire – together. The branches and logs fueling this mysterious and mystical fire will be your healing images born of love and light. The fire will burn luminous and bright in the magic of the night.

If you choose to participate in this healing journey, work with us each night. Any time after twilight and before the dawn ... your Higher Self and Soul know when the time will be right.

Dear one, you are not alone ... never again will you be alone. We are here for you, we love you. Your Unseen Friends are about, and magic is afoot.

And they come ... the Dreamers, the Ancients, and the Shining Ones. You are the magicians of this current and coming time. Even in this tragic time, this is the dawning of your day.

Thank you for accepting our invitation to act.

With love ... with love and peace,

Lazaris

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Nature Spirits

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Nature Spirits

By Jach

A Grouping of Questions with Jach's Replies from the Online Conferences

Q: Lazaris suggested getting in touch with nature and the nature spirits during this phase, and I wondered ... What are some ways that you work with the nature spirits?

JACH: Well ... I have been renewing that work over the last few days, so I am glad you asked. [Ed Note: This question and answer come from an Online Conference during the year 2000.]

I have a really strong relationship with gnomes. Fire is my element when it comes to the Unknown and when it comes to working with the Mystical Other, but the Earth element has very profound meaning for me in this world and in my work with this world. So gnomes have a special place in my heart and in my magic.

Out by the pool there is a cluster of rocks, and there are ferns that grow all around the rocks. There is an etheric gateway there. When the gateway is open the ferns seem to have shifted and one particular rock is visible. When the gateway is closed the fern fronds seem to be in a different position, and you cannot see the rocks at all. When the rock is visible, the gateway is open, and I stare into its vortex.

There is a particular gnome that comes and sits there. We talk across the pool. It's telepathic, but we have full and lively conversations. I ask for help with some of my magic. He asks me for help with his projects. Funny, I just realized that he never calls these things his magic; these things are always his projects. I suppose that's because everything is magic to a gnome, ya think? Anyway, we work together that way. Sometimes we sit and just look at each other. I practice seeing without my eyes and then with them. I am not sure what he is practicing. Maybe he's being polite.

Also, between Peny's house and mine, there is a wonderful wetlands-forest-magical lair type of place. We built these wonderful wood walkways through this conservation area. Lazaris has said there are several vortices to the Other in that area. Jennifer, who works for us, has had many experiences with these vortices as she tromps through that area. She has had many dreams that are much more than dreams.

So I use that area as a place to nurture and re-energize. Now, those who know me realize that I am not likely to be trampling around in those wetlands. [g] But here is where altered states, out-of-body adventures, and teleporting can be very useful. [g]

A lot of what I do in this regard comes down to feeling gratitude. I spend time being conscious of the Nature Spirits. I work with sylph and undines, as well. But most of what I do is to be conscious of their presence. I am conscious of the work they do. And I feel grateful. I feel appreciation. I feel joy. I feel thankful. And I express that to them. I haven't hugged a tree in more years than I can say, but I have talked with them often. And I have talked with the gnomes that work so closely with them.

I had a willow tree in the backyard in California. I don't have one now. But there is a section of my backyard where there is a willow tree growing. It's in another world. You cannot see it physically, though I can now. But many people have commented on how there is "something special" going on in that part of the yard. Yeah, a willow tree is growing there. [g]

Thanks for asking. I could go on and on but I won't.

Q: Would you please clarify from the Magic Mills event the energies and forces of the universe and the calling of the Nature Spirits. I don't know if this was covered Friday, but I could not quite get it. I appreciate this, and the whole event was so profound.

JACH:

Well, I am glad you could get to the workshop for Saturday and Sunday ... and it is good to hear from you tonight.

There are four energies of the universe ... life energy, light energy, warmth as energy, and chemical energy. To effectively activate the Mills, we need to call upon the "energies of the universe." But we need to transmute those energies into a more applicable form. So we need to call down these energies to be transmuted into forces. The four forces of the universe are gravity, weak/strong; strong/weak; and electromagnetic, respectively. So we call the energies of the universe and downstep-generate them (transmute them) into forces of the universe.

At the same time, to activate the Mills, we need to call upon Earth's energy. To do that, we need to call upon the spirit of Nature (capital N). And that energy needs to be lifted to the level of Elements ... to the level of Elemental Magic. So we call upon the gnome, sylph, salamander, and undine energies to be lifted to the Elements of Earth, Light, Fire, and Water, respectively. A quick reminder: These Elements are metaphorical terms.

Now with the forces of the universe and the elements of Nature, we allow them to converge: life/gravity combine with Earth and gnomes; light/weak-strong combine with Air and sylphs; warmth/strong-weak combine with Fire and salamanders; chemistry/electromagnetic combine with Water and undines, and they all combine with each other.

And the spark for the energies and forces of the universe ignites and combines with the Elements and Nature of Earth, and magic happens. The Mills are activated. All this relates to the seminal spark from the universe, impregnating the new form emerging from the womb of the earth. It has to do with spirit seeking soul and soul waiting to be found, and the great turning of the wheel. This is what activates the Mills. And the magic begins (well, it is actually well underway [s]). I hope that helps.

Q: Are the Nature Spirits part of what helps us create our dreams, along with the other Unseen Friends?

JACH:

Hi there ... I am having difficulty figuring out the phrases to use in answering your question. Give me a moment here. [s]

Nature Spirits surely can help us in creating our dreams, there is no question. But do they? On one hand, since our physical world within our physical universe is composed of the energies of the universe: light, life, warmth, and chemical energies ... and of the corresponding forces: weak/strong, gravity, strong/weak, and electromagnetic ... certainly our dreams are comprised of these energies and forces, too.

The Nature Spirits are metaphorical expressions of these energies and forces. So if we create our dreams and then manifest those creations, I suppose it would be proper to say that the Nature Spirits participated. But did they help us? From this point of view, I think I would answer no. The Nature Spirits don't help us. They participate. Without their participation, we wouldn't create anything, and we certainly would not create dreams. Without their participation, we wouldn't manifest anything, and likewise, we wouldn't manifest dreams. But participation does not mean help. It's not as if the gnomes "care" what dreams we create; it's not as if they jump in to assist us out of some emotional bonding. [s]

That said, on the other hand, if we are conscious of the Nature Spirits, and if we develop a rapport with them, then we can ask for their help and their guidance in the creation and in the manifestation of our dreams. With the appropriate rapport with them and the proper belief in ourselves, I think they can help us immensely with all aspects of our dreams. They ... the gnomes, sylphs, salamanders, and undines ... can be powerful players in the working of our magic. For some, they can be esoteric or mystical players. In that consciously requested participation, they can help. They can also bring an almost unspeakable richness to the living of our lives.

You know, during this month of January, I have been following Lazaris' suggestion to gain perspective and to explore issues of mattering more deeply. I have been thinking about the cliche of "what matters is ... health, happiness, following our dream, etc." And these are important things. Don't get me wrong. But I am coming to a personal conclusion about the important issues. And the term that keeps coming up for me has to do with the depth of experience or has to do with the richness of experience. Sure, the content is valuable and all, but the depth and richness and the texture of that content seem to stand out in my living of life. At least, that is how it is feeling in this January, 2003.

Though I hadn't thought of it before, it seems to me that developing that rapport and letting that rapport mature into a relationship with the Nature Spirits would be an excellent way to find that depth and to cultivate that richness. In addition, the phrase "beautiful patterns of understanding" popped into my head the other day. To the question: "What do I really enjoy doing?" I answered: "I really enjoy spending time thinking and searching thought, looking for beautiful patterns of understanding." I am not sure where that came from, but I suspect it was from my Higher Self and that it flowed out of my unconscious.

To work with the Nature Spirits seems like a viable way to find those patterns. I hope that answered your question. Your asking this question offered me an answer I was looking for. [s]

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Lazaris Message on the War in Iraq March 20, 2003

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Lazaris Message on the War in Iraq March 20, 2003

By Lazaris

LAZARIS:

All right, all right. Well, indeed, a pleasure to be with you, a pleasure to be talking with you and to be looking into your world, and to welcome you, and to welcome you with all kinds of pleasure and all kinds of joy.

And tonight, a time of blending, a time of meditation, a time of contemplation. A tumultuous time in your world, that is so. A war, the obvious topic that is on all your minds and weighs heavily upon all your hearts regardless of your politics, regardless of how you experience this energy, a war that weighs heavily upon mind and heart, weighs heavily upon soul and spirit this night.

The Channel’s response earlier in the evening about the dawning of your day, about finding that voice as Magician, masterful magician, about raising your voice so that you can be heard amid the din … and you have both found that voice and you have been heard. You have changed the complexity, you have changed the nature – no, not perfectly.

So what is this war about? Last time, a dozen years ago, it was about a bully and how you respond, how you interact, with a bully. It was about a crisis of character, it was about a crisis of ego, it was about a crisis of success. This war, a very different war. And it is, we’ll put it quite succinctly, a shame that it has come to this. And all would agree. Those who are very supportive of the American administration, part of a coalition or otherwise, those individuals who are totally supportive would totally agree, it is a shame that it has come to this.

And those who are in opposition, in varying degrees, to such activity, however insightfully or blindly in opposition, would likewise agree, it is a shame. And there would be many who would want to blame. And others, more wisely, would want to look to where lies the fault … not whose fault is it, in that of blaming, but where lies the fault? It is a shame – the war is an issue of shame on all sides; how people respond, how humankind responds to shame.

Shame-based: You’ve worked with it personally. This, a shame of humankind. And the fault lies where? In humankind’s inability – we’ll say it as succinctly as we can – in humankind’s inability to build alliances. Humankind, relying upon the word “ally,” but not really developing alliances. Had the European Union, for example, truly built alliances, had the Western world – had the Western Hemisphere and the Western world really pulled together to create a viable alliance, a variety of alliances – no, not organizations, not labels – but not just allies but truly building alliances, then there could have been an alternative solution to what now is something that is this war around which everyone feels shame.

The failure, if there is, the fault lies in the inability to truly build alliances. And had alliances been fully built – over the last decade of years from 1992 onward, had alliances truly been built that were other than political gesturing or posturing – had they more solidly been built, then there would have been viable alternatives that everyone could have enjoyed. And it is a shame that it has come to this.

So what do you do about it? As you look into your shame, as you look into the shame that you personally feel around this war, how do you react? How do you respond? What thoughts? What feelings?

Some may be angry, some may be hurt, some may be scared, some may go into all states of self-doubt. When you look squarely into this countenance, when you look squarely into the face, when you look into the eyes of shame, what do you feel? What do you think? Feel those feelings, think those thoughts. Let yourself sift them and shift them, sort through them.

What beliefs and attitudes do you hold about shame? What choices and decisions do you make about shame? And in that shame – your shame, not other people’s, your own – in that shame, what do you do? How much do you punish yourself? How much do you throw yourself into self-doubt? How much do you ridicule yourself? Or how much do you forgive? How much do you forgive and work to heal yourself? How much do you release that shame? Ask for the help in lifting that shame? Turn to your very Soul, to your Higher Self, to your relationship with God/Goddess/All That Is, to your love, to lift that shame, forgive yourself, and heal yourself?

Yes, this war, it is a shame that it has come to this, and therein lie your clues, Magician, to the focus of your magic. No, you will not write the reality that there is no war, but you can still write the reality that this war – a shame that it has come to this – can lead you into that future, that future, that positive future of dreams and visions – that positive future, that virgin future untouched by human hand, rich with magic and miracles. How exactly, where exactly, what the form will be …

But as you can squarely face your shame, resolve how you deal with your shame, ask for help in its release, forgive yourself, and then direct all that energy that otherwise would have been lost in shame to the dream, to the vision, to the love, to the magic, to the miracles that you want to create. And you can let your voice, the voice of a magician, the voice of magic, be a part of the resolution of this war, of this shame, and part of what can follow in the years – in the months, in the years ahead.

With Love and Peace,

Lazaris

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Bringing In The New World

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: Bringing In The New World

By Jach

(Though this first Q&A is from an Online Conference prior to the 2008 Presidential election, Jach's response is as timely now as it was then.)

Q: Lazaris has talked so much about how the new world will really be a new world and not an old world that is fixed, and I wonder what specifically to program for. Is it most effective to program for the resonance that we want, like the resonance of goodness, truth and beauty and a government free of corruption? Or for specifics, like this upcoming Presidential election?

Jach: As I read your question, a couple of thoughts come to mind. ... Give me a minute, and they might come to my fingertips as well. [g]

First, the new world is now destined to be. It's not an ideology or an ideal, as Lazaris has been pointing out recently. But we are just now entering the liminal years or the years in between our current world and the new world. They are still "worlds" apart.

There is a lot that will be happening in these next two decades that the liminal years will comprise. First, there are the building years that make up the next ten years, and then, well, I don't know what then.

But 2018 is the time of birthing the new world, isn't it? The year 2006 is the end of the current chromatic cycle, and it will begin the birthing process in earnest, as I understand it. And then the next twelve-year chromatic octave (2006 to 2018) will be when the new world is born and begins its infancy. So there is a while yet. [g]

So I think we do program things like the Presidential election and the political landscape in America. I think we continue working with dismantling and disarming the negativity and with awakening that tri-polar energy becoming a uni-polar force. I think we continue to focus on the daily magic as expressed personally, nationally, and internationally. And I think we work, not to fix and to cure, as Lazaris would point out, but to change and heal the world we have. I think that is what we do in the liminal years.

And then, I think we work on visualizing the miraculous states and the transcendent states as the way the world will be. I don't know about visualizing for a non-corrupt government, for example. Maybe that's right. Maybe that's right for some of us. But what is government going to be like in the new world? I just don't know.

I am not naive enough, to think that there will be no government or that there will be ideal government, but I really have no clear images. I mean, the images I can currently hold are a government that is a fixed or cured one. I don't really know what a changed and healed one would look like. See what I mean?

Also, Lazaris has been talking about the miraculous states and about transcendent states a little too often for me to ignore that. I started a new thread about working with our unconscious, and one of the keys to successfully harnessing the power of our unconscious has to do with the vision of transcendent states. And it is integral to allowing the Other to be mystical -- to be the Mystical Other. It is part of the collage of energy for healing our magic. It is part of our unstoppable power of magic. And beyond that, Lazaris is saying it a lot. That's a clue, as far as I am concerned.

So I tend to visualize a world in which things happen beyond expectation and imagination and a world in which people consciously talk about that. I see a world where life supersedes and surpasses itself and a world in which people notice that and are excited about it. I see a world where people are hopeful because they see that life is superseding itself and maybe their lives can do that, too. And they are talking about it openly.

I think what I am saying here is that I am visualizing that the current miraculous states become the consensus reality of a new world. And I leave the form -- the details -- to follow that function. That's what it means to me.

Q: Yesterday, while considering the "Paradox of Participation" thread, my mind drifted to what Lazaris said about our creation of a "Virgin Future." Can you talk about how the Virgin Future relates to the "Paradox"?

Jach:  I find the paradox of participation thread to be really fun and thought provoking. The actual paradox is even more exhilarating. Hmm. ... I hadn't thought about it in relationship to the Virgin Future, but, of course, it relates.

The Virgin Future, precursor to the New World, is also now destined to be. First, that's a hard one for many of us to get our minds around. We can say the words, I suppose, but do we really grok the reality? I know it is really hard for me. I know that I think I understand it and accept it, and then it seems to slip away again. I keep returning to the idea of a Virgin Future as a fixed up and a much better rendition of the current or the past. I tend to experience the Virgin Future in a Don Quixote fashion. I keep seeing the wrongs righted and the impossible dreams dreamt. Maybe it will be that way. But that is not -- cannot -- be the whole of it.

So, as ideal as I want to hold it, as quixotic as my image of it may be, when it's that way, I know I haven't yet groked it. I haven't yet wrapped my mind around it. And then I realize I don't have to wrap my mind around it completely. I don't have to know the precise details. I can still participate! Ha! I don't have to know every play or every strategy. I don't have to know each move and each step. I can still participate in the creation and the manifestation of the virgin future.

And then I think ... the word virgin means untouched by human hands ... and I smile. I guess I won't be able to pore over the blueprints, will I? I can participate in its creation and manifestation without a direct and conscious "hands on" experience of what it is. And that is so exciting to me.

It seems that the Paradox of Participation is essential for us to have a hand in creating something that is untouched by our hands. And I think it is important to remember that the resolution of paradox is where the power lies. And the resolution of this paradox is in choice. I love it. [g]

Q: Hello, Jach! In the Merlin-Arthur recordings, Lazaris describes Camelot. Apparently, the New World will have the qualities and characteristics found in Camelot, but with the year 2006 "just around the corner," can you give us some more details? THANK YOU!

Jach:  Hehehe ... Hi there. Give you more details? Wow. [s] Well, 2006 is fast approaching, that is true. So I go back to that Culminating Weekend called "Earth Changes." During that discussion, Lazaris laid out the chromatic octaves of energy that are active. Beginning in 1982, the pattern of the past was broken and a 12-year cycle began. In 1994, the Vortex of Sirius ... the Vortex of the Goddess ... opened wide and full, as it had not done for over 90,000 years and will not do again for another 90,000 years. After 1994, during the most monumental decade in the history of humankind, we made a choice: There will be a positive future of dreams and visions. 2006 (with a plus or minus of 3 years ... between 2003 and 2009) is the birthing of the New World. And as with any birth, there are labor pains ... there are massive contractions and cramps. I think our world is experiencing such labor pains. But the focal year is 2006 for the birthing. It could be a late birthing; it could be as late as 2009. But it is actually the following twelve years that are key ... 2006 to 2018. The realization or the growing of that New World happens then.

So it's not as if one day in 2006, a New World cries out, and a New World is born with a specific time and date. ... It will not have an astrological sign. [s] And it's not as though our "old world" will vanish and a new one will take its place. It's a birthing, but there the analogy to human birth ends.

See, this is why Lazaris has emphasized growing and changing ... why he has focused so much on shifting our observing and measuring devices. Our reality ... old world or new world ... is still an illusion. It is still the stuff of raw materials, tools, and generating and sustaining energies. It is still the stuff of our creation. In order to experience the New World, we need new calibrations for our old observing and measuring devices. If we don't, the very, very new world will appear and seem to function just as the very, very old one did. There is not some sort of miraculous salvation out there where we will wake up in the New World. It's not about some metaphysical "rapture." [vbg] The energies will be there. It is up to us to configure that energy in formation ... in a new formation ... of a new world.

So between 2006 and 2018, we will be doing that. And even now, we can experience pieces ... glimmers and shimmers ... of that New World. There are many things in my life ... and there are many things in your life ... in all our lives ... that truly are the stuff of the new world. If we look with patience ... attention and intention ... we can experience them. In many ways, we have parts of the New World as our reality already. Yes.

But other people don't, right? Well, that is always going to be the case. There will always be those who insist the world is the same old world. Personally, I don't think we can wait for the "least among us" to get on board. As Lazaris points out, if someone is trapped in a deep well shouting for help, stand strong outside the well and offer to lift them out. Don't jump down and join them in the well so the two of you can shout louder. So I look for my expressions of a New World, and I share that with others. I will not deny it until the "least among humankind" accepts it.

Using another analogy, it is not unlike Magellan's ships. We need to be the shamans for our world. We need to help people see what they cannot yet see. And we don't do that by blinding ourselves. We do that by looking more closely and listening more intently. We do that by shifting our own observing and measuring devices. We do that by working with the building blocks of this decade ... dominion, mystery, creation/manifestation, expansion, union ... and upcoming, illumination. And we work with complexity ... maintaining our individuality, while we come together and function as one without abandoning or losing that individuality.

So, more details? Well, I don't know what it will look like for you or for others. I cannot say I absolutely know what it looks like for me. I suspect it will be incredibly individual and distinctively unique for each of us. I suspect that the New World will actually be more like many New Worlds (plural) ... many different sets of reality creation that are amazingly, even astoundingly, individual. But I could be wrong about that. [s]

Thanks for your question.

Q: Hi, Jach. Can working with the Mystical Other help us give birth to the New World more elegantly?

Jach: Hi there. (And honestly, folks, I did not suggest this question ahead of time. [s]) It's good to hear from you.

In a word: Yes. In more words: Absolutely working with the worlds of Other -- of the Mystical Other (meaning the Other that is not available through our familiar senses, but is nonetheless there) -- can be a powerful venue for giving birth to the New World, or as Lazaris says it, "a world that is becoming new." Lazaris has talked about how we are involved in an evolution of consciousness and in an evolution of the human species. Evolution of consciousness is always happening. The evolution of a species doesn't happen that often, but it happens, for sure. However, such evolution has never been a conscious one, until now.

And the evolution of the human species is often totally misunderstood. People used to have images of people with huge heads and tiny, little, frail bodies, because we were evolving into totally cerebral people. Obviously, not so. Others even now talk of people having extra or additional chromosomes. Again, not so. It is not that sort of totally physical evolution of the species, but it is an evolution -- generating a "new kind of human being." And both evolutions are happening consciously. But we cannot do it alone. We need help. We get that help as we work with our magic and with our friends (seen and Unseen). In addition, we need to reach beyond conscious creation magic and beyond resonance magic. We need to reach into the realms of "Other" magic and confluence magic. And that, I think, is where the Mystical Other comes in.

As we work with magicians from our worlds (current and ancestral) and with magicians from the Faerie Realm -- that World of Other that shares our planet -- I think we lift to an expansive level of magic that can generate realities or changes in reality that are beyond our current scope. I think that with confluence magic -- the blending together of human and faerie magic into a pool of magic -- we can reach beyond the horizons into the Unknown, and we can create possibilities before they become possibilities in our world.

Lazaris talks about this in the Celebrating the Worlds of Other Intensive. The Imaginal Realm is where possibility exists before it is possible, and it's where magic creates itself. And during that workshop, we met with our faerie friend in the Imaginal Realm -- also a realm that we and faeries share. And we worked magic together. And that magic was phenomenal. It "shook a lot of people up" with a resonance shift and shake down. [s] A lot of unexpected changes happened to a lot of us out of that workshop.

But back to the point: We cannot do it alone. We cannot do it with our current levels of magic as masterful and as majestic as they may be. We need to work together. Together -- a concept of our feminine side (regardless of our gender) that is too foreign. Together -- a concept that in our world is being brutalized as women throughout parts of the world are being brutalized. Together -- a concept that with the lack of civility that is occurring in the United States -- is something we all need to begin to understand and to embrace. And together, we can work our magic with other human magicians. Together, we can work our magic with faerie magicians who also have a stake in our success. So, working with the Mystical Other -- which includes Nature Spirits, the Elements, the forces of the universe, as well as with faeries -- can be a powerful component in birthing a world that is becoming new. [s]

I get very excited about all this. Excuse my zeal. [s] And thanks for your question [s]

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In Search of the Truer Self

Saturday, December 19, 2015
Blog: In Search of the Truer Self

By Lazaris

All right. All right. Well, well, oh my, yes. Certainly so. Whenever we conduct a workshop, we begin by listening and by watching. At workshops, with your permission, we begin by touching – by touching that vulnerable and tender part of you that, in turn, always touches us so deeply. We touch that part that shimmers – that part so fragile and so powerful – so profoundly powerful – somewhere deep inside you.

That part of you that we touch and that touches us, in many ways, is the you who always loves – it’s the you we call the Truer Self. As you read these words, we will work with you so that you might touch – so that you can be touched – by that part, by that Truer Self as well.

Your journey with its few and many paths has taken many twists and turns. You have known struggle and suffering. You have known fear and pain – more fear and pain than was ever meant to be. You have known failure and sorrow and the silence of shame and despair.

And through it all, you love, you continue to seek and search for love. You have also known the power and wonder of celebration and triumph. And still you love even more. You do not settle or become complacent. You continue to seek and search for love – for more love.

You are amazing; you are astounding. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how good it becomes, you always seek and search for love. No matter how obscured, encumbered, or entangled your quest becomes, it never ends. No matter how lost you appear to be, you keep searching to be found.

It is your nature; it is your grace. Seeking more love comes to you as flight to an eagle. It is your dignity and your presence.

Amid this never-ending search for love, there is another search. We would suggest that while more love is your goal, you are also seeking your Truer Self. And as you seek both – more love and your Truer Self – there are so many wonders waiting for you.

So many wonders ...

1. You can create and manifest so much more of what you want, and you can fulfill so much more of your dreams and visions. You can touch and be touched by more of your magic, by more of your passion, and by more of your creativity. The peace, the self-acceptance, the more healing and the more loving can be yours.

2. A new sense of compassion and dominion can be yours. You can metaphorically walk with the elements, creating positive futures in the world that can become friendlier and more encouraging. You can give without guilt – beyond guilt – and you can love without fear – beyond fear.

3. Greater freedom to be and to become, the freedom to supersede and to surpass, with its possibilities and its capacities, can be within your grasp.

4. As you search for more love and seek your Truer Self, you can challenge the limits of your beliefs and imagination and the constraints of your trust and love. You can be wise. You can know. And in many ways, you can become your Truer Self and the beneficiary of the more love you always seek.

You are ready ...

That you are reading these words suggests that you are ready. We would suggest, your Higher Self is ready to link and connect you to your Truer Self. Your Truer Self is ready to be found.

Your world is waiting. As we have often said, "Nothing changes until you do." The world is evolving, and your conscious and active participation is an integral part of the evolution. The positive futures, rather than the "nightmares" and "mediocrities," are coming. It is your conscious creation and midwifery that will make it so.

Your spirituality calls you to the challenge. You are at a crossroads. Your future is waiting with so much abundance and bounty – happiness and success. In so many ways, we would suggest, seeking your Truer Self is the next step in your quest for love. With new ways of changing and new ways of growing, you must have known that there would be new ways of loving.

The Great Work and the Great Adventure are your work and adventure. In this sensing, these are yours to unfold with more of your magic and with the miracles of your Truer Self. With your Truer Self, the Great Work leading to the Great Adventure can become the Grand Adventure.

We hear you ...

We hear you. "It's too much. I am not enough. I cannot do all that; I cannot do it alone."

You are not alone. There is help. We would suggest, we are here to help you. Your Higher Self and Soul are always with you to help you and to assure you with their love and caring. Each is ready to help you come face to face with your Truer Self.

Your spirit, so filled with the breath of life and the inspiration-aspiration to live life more full and rich, is aligned with your Higher Self and Soul.

As we have said, your Truer Self is waiting to be discovered. And of course, God/Goddess/All That Is is always there for you and is always ready to love you.

You are not alone. You are loved more than you can know.

The nature of your Truer Self ...

Dreamer and Visionary: We would suggest, the Truer Self in you is always reaching for the future, the possible, the luminous – that which is filled with Light – and the numinous – that which is filled with the Divine. This august part of you is always reaching for the Unknown and the unfathomable.

Your Truer Self uses their raw materials and tools of creation with a focus on the future. In this sensing, your Truer Self accesses their beliefs and attitudes, their thoughts and feelings, and their decisions and choices with an emphasis on creating a better future rather than continually attempting to fix or perfect the past. The Truer Self forgives the errant of the past and works with receiving the powerful of the future. '

Your Truer Self activates and utilizes the generating and sustaining energies of conscious reality creation with an eye that is more upon what they are about to create more than upon what they have already created. In this sensing, this Self works with trust, gratitude, happiness, and value (the generating energies of reality creation) to build bridges to what lies at and beyond their horizons. They are visionaries; they look forward more than backward. They work with the sustaining energies (discipline, responsibility, intimacy, and love) to empower the present and the future rather than to justify the past.

That is to say, this powerful and beautiful Self within you asks, "Where am I going?" more often than they ask, "Where have I been?" That Self asks, "Where will this lead me?" more than, "What will this get me?"

Find these ingredients in you and you begin to see the hints and clues that your Truer Self is ready to find you.

Consciousness and Conscience with Dignity: Everyone has a sense of their consciousness. We call that awareness the Self-I as opposed to the Ego-I. Each person has a conscience.

That "little voice in your head" that is mistakenly called your Higher Self by some, we would suggest, is actually your conscience. Too often it is born of guilt or fear; too often it is born of duty and obligation.

Why do you get up and get about the work of the day? With a conscience of guilt or fear, that "little voice" offers threats and warnings about the dire consequences of not getting up and getting on with your day. With a conscience of duty and obligations, that "little voice" speaks of endless lists of things to do.

Yet, there is a different voice. We would suggest, there is consciousness and a conscience born of and based on dignity ... upon your dignity.

The base of your personal dignity is found within your sense of valuing yourself for who you have become and for who you are about to be. It is found within the strength of your character and integrity and in the presence of your Soul and Spirit. It is formed in your sense of freedom.

That "little voice," when based on dignity, encourages you to get up and be about your day because you are a valuable person with much to explore and offer this day. It entreats you with a remembrance of an embrace of Soul and Spirit and of the wonder of freedom. And you respond to that "little voice" with doing the right thing because it is the right thing. In this sensing, you respond with character and with integrity.

Your Truer Self is conscious of its dignity. Its conscience is born of and based upon that dignity. Find your dignity, and you are in pursuit of that not-so-elusive Truer Self.

Integrity: Admittedly so, integrity is a hard concept to fully understand. We would suggest that many within the consensus reality have used the word and the concept of integrity for less than admirable purposes. Many have used the idea of integrity to manipulate others.

Despite the twists and distortions that have come to the concept of integrity, we suggest it can be helpful to understand it as involving four ideas: 1) being spontaneously responsible for the impact you have; 2) thinking and feeling the full range of your emotions with intensity and humility; 3) becoming wise; and 4) having both personal and spiritual character.

People with integrity hold the space within themselves to hold every aspect of who they are. They hold a space for the beautiful within them. They also hold the space for the ugly within them.

In this sensing, a person who is unaware of their shadowy side lacks integrity. That is, a person who says such things as "I don’t have a negative bone in my body" lacks integrity because they do not have the space within them for their ugly side.

In the reverse, a person who says "There is nothing good about me; nothing at all" also lacks integrity because they do not hold the space for the beautiful in them.

The person with integrity says such things as, "I know I can be negative ... very negative. I also know that I have many wonderful strengths and powers. I have the potential for either the negative or the positive. I know this about me. And I can choose. Yes, I can choose the space from which I come. I choose the positive. I choose my power and strength."

Your Truer Self has integrity. You will discover more of your Truer Self as you explore your own integrity.

Making and Working Miracles: Your Truer Self doesn’t deserve more miracles than others do; it is not rewarded with more miracles. We would suggest, your Truer Self is capable of making and receiving miracles ... miracles available to anyone.

When we have talked of miracles makers, we have suggested that they have certain characteristics of personality ... they have a unique nature.

They are confident and conscious of their spirituality. The miracle maker uses success and failure and personal and spiritual crises to become strong and to transform. We would suggest, they do not use such as these to justify weakness or to explain their "specialness."

The miracle maker has the courage to craft their life filled with freedom, individuality, joy, and authority. That is to say, they look to utilize their strength and power ... their magic ... to make a life more than they look to these to make a living. In life, they look to supersede and surpass what has been, in search for what will be. They pursue the unfathomable with expectation and anticipation. They pursue the Unknown with hope.

As you seek these, you come closer to your Truer Self.

Seeking and Searching with Spirited Passion: Spirited passion includes such as these: Truth, Goodness, and Beauty; Creativity and Productivity; Awareness and Understanding; Meaning and Significance; Value and the Valuable; Wonder and Joy; and Spirituality.

As you ponder these words and the concepts contained within them – as you seek the experience of each – in the mystery and the secrets that unfold, you can reveal more of your Truer Self.

Gracious Generosity: This is a kind of giving that has little or nothing to do with giving to "give in" or to "give up." It has little or nothing to do with "giving away" or "giving in exchange." Gracious giving is both giving and receiving beyond guilt; it is loving beyond fear.

We would suggest that gracious giving – the giving that is a natural part of you and exalted in you–is giving of your being more than of your doing.

By this we mean that often you give of what you do and of what you have. For example, you give money, time, space (your spare room or garage), and skill. Such giving can be and so often is beautiful and touching. It can be an inspiration. Giving of what you have and do can be profoundly powerful, and it is necessary.

We would add that there is giving of what you are; there is giving of what you "be." In this sensing, you are not money, time, your spare room or garage. You are not your skill. You have these, but you are not these.

What are you? You are consciousness of love; you are caring and creative. You are a spiritual being. Gracious giving is giving of your love and caring; it is giving of your talent and creativity. It is giving of your spirit ... your Soul and Spirit. These are the stuffs of your beingness more than your doingness.

Your Truer Self knows the difference. As you come to sense that difference, you come to sense your Truer Self.

Transcendence: Certainly there are transcendent states within your reality. There are those moments marked with beauty and with ecstasy; there are those moments –those timeless and spaceless moments that can be eternal – that are sacred in the hallows of beauty, love, solitude, and enchantment. Your Truer Self knows such moments. And we would suggest, they also have a resonance or a radiance of being transcendent.

What does that mean? Perhaps the most elegant way to describe being transcendent is to say that such a person has a radiance about them that seems to say that they enjoy life and enjoy living it rich with love and caring. That radiance seems to say that such a person is intrigued by and seeks complexity and challenge in their life. And they seek it with wisdom and with spirituality. A transcendent person, we would suggest, is one who invests in themselves and in their future.

Beginning the search ...

Work with the components. Work with where these qualities are present and where they seem lacking; work with where they seem missing. As you acknowledge and augment the presence of these, your Truer Self can emerge more fully. As you bring more loving and more healing to what seems to lag or to be lacking, you can love and heal your Truer Self into participating more fully in your life.

Work with:

  • Dreaming & Visioning
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  • Consciousness & Conscience of Dignity
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  • Integrity
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  • Making & Working Miracles
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  • Seeking & Searching with Spirited Passion
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  • Gracious Generosity
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  • Transcendence

Work with love. Remember, whereas it used to be that your growth was based on discipline, admonishment, fixing, and curing, your growth is now about more loving and more healing. It’s about changing more than about fixing; it’s about healing more than about curing. Work with love. You always do.

As we said when we began ... You are amazing; you are astounding. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how good it becomes, you always seek and search for love. No matter how obscured, encumbered, or entangled your quest becomes, it never ends. No matter how lost you appear to be, you keep searching to be found.

Yes, work with love ... always more love.

We close with the love we feel and hold for you.

With love and peace,

Lazaris



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